eli is doing well. I have cancelled all my evening activities this week just so that I can really focus on nurturing. there is something I want to complain about. Noone on Lj can see me complain here. All the people here will have no idea what I am on about so it seems okay. what i learned this weekend is that life can be more interesting when you are the third wheel to someone elses agenda. The woman with the ford focus needs an attitude adjustment. She insisted four grown women and all the baggage fit into her two door ford focus and drive many hours. I offered my big boxy volvo and she said "I need to drive". I said "you can be the driver of my car" she said no. I want to drive mine. She picks us all up and her transmission is acting funny. I have tuck my feet under my ass on the way down. When we got to portland she announced she wanted 40 cents a mile and we could split it. We were going to sleep, do the play and drive back that night to get in at four a.m. Cause I just wanted to go home ASAP. I was asleep by nine thirty and then the driver proceeded to get drunk and stay up till 3.30 am. I put lotsa pillows over my head. She was yeeling about how people that have kids should something something. I dunno i just put the pillows over my head. she was either really happy or angry. I was the only parent in the group. So I found a different way back. I didnt make anything of it and was super fake in my dealings with her and rubbed her shoulders and stuff. I could tell by the look in her eye that she knew I was fed the ma fuck up. She tried telling me that I HAD to go back with her because I could drive a clutch and she was just too tired. I just handed her some money and said I needed to go party at the cast party. Which wasn't true at all.
ssshhhhhh. its a secret. oh well. to tell the truth, I had such a magical time on the agenda of another. I was taken to three hours of sunday morning ecstatic dance. eighty year old women dancing to techno music. All ages. all sizes. dancing sweating stretching. after that a party with hot tubs and very kind people. looks like the people i spent my weekend with hAVE all friended my other journal. It was just so wonderful.
was a magical weekend!! I felt like a sailboat in unknown territory.